Sunday, August 28, 2016

Back to School

I took a summer break from the blog and poured hours of my evenings working towards catching up on Family Photo Albums.

We had a full summer - swimming lessons, lots of trips to the library, and the girls spent extra time with my parents so Rodney and I could get away and celebrate our ten year wedding anniversary.

Fall Schedules are almost in full swing, and I just happened to take impromptu school pictures last week.




Saturday, August 27, 2016

the girls and the tractor



Charis Joy's Birth Story


Charis,

I felt as though I was in labor with you all of your third trimester. Starting at 29 weeks, I found out that I was dilating and effacing early. But that's a whole other story. Many weeks and prayers later, we finally arrived at the night of your birth. At a day shy of your due date, I was more than ready to meet you. Two weeks previously at 38 weeks, I had spent most of the day in labor, starting the day with contractions every five minutes, which lengthened to every six, then every 8 minutes and finally every 20-25 minutes. Yes, I was more than ready to meet you. So ready, in fact, that I told your Grandma that you would be here any day more than a week before your due date, so Grandma came to stay with us the Sunday before you were born. And then Monday passed, then Tuesday, and so forth until the morning of Thursday October 2nd.

We joke that you and your sisters bleed Caterpillar Yellow because you always seem to hold off for all of Daddy's important work engagements. And sure enough, your Daddy had important meetings through Thursday afternoon, so it was fitting that I wait to see my Midwife to help your labor along until Thursday afternoon.

When I saw my midwife, Mary, that afternoon, I was still 4cm dilated (like I had been for the previous 3+ weeks) and 75% effaced. She was able to do a very thorough membrane sweep because everything was soft and ready for you to be born. After "the sweep", I picked up a Decaf Pumpkin Spice latte and headed to the grocery store. I kept waiting for the contractions to pick up in frequency, and while the intensity of my contractions changed, the frequency did not. So we enjoyed baked pork chops and noodles for dinner and carried about our normal evening routines.

My contractions were still only 20-25 minutes apart around 9:30pm, so I took a long hot shower. I even blow dried my hair! Later that evening, I sent a rather discouraged message to friends that were praying me through your pregnancy, saying that I didn't think you'd be born anytime soon. I crawled into bed, resting and waiting through rather uncomfortable contractions, which were still only about 25 minutes apart.

And then my water broke. It was 11:30pm, and I felt as though I was walking through a memory. Before Tabitha was born, my water also broke before my labor started. I woke your daddy up, and he got up to get dressed. I then told him to crawl back into bed; I was fully expecting to have 45 minutes at home while my labor picked up.

But after about two minutes, I realized the contractions were suddenly coming very fast and hard, and I knew we had to leave for the hospital. Thankfully, Grandma was sleeping in the guest bed and we didn't need to call for anyone to come to the house. We were able to leave right away!

At this point, less than ten minutes have transpired from when my waters broke, and I was having to breath through the contractions. Your daddy drove us quickly to the hospital, and it was a relief to see the all too familiar sign of the ER. It was  a little bit after midnight.

Upon checking in, I asked if I could use the restroom. One nurse said that I was an experienced mom and could go, while the other nurse insisted I go right up to Labor and Delivery. They sat me down in the wheel chair, and I chatted between contractions and breathed when I had them as we made the long trip from the ER up to L&D. The intensity of labor was picking up.

Upon checking in, I was welcomed by a familiar face. Katie, who had helped deliver Tabitha, was working that night, and a little bit of my apprehension dissipated. It was now about 12:15 and I finally got to go to the bathroom. At this point, my contractions were very painful, and they wanted to feel how I was progressing. In the car on the way to the hospital, I had told Rodney, "I'm for sure a 6!" So I was very discouraged to learn that I was a 5! At this point they asked if I wanted any pain medication, and I started to panic. Teary, I said to Rodney, "I don't know if I can do this!" But in my head I knew that my labor would be fast and pain medications would do little to help me through to the end.

I labored through several hard contractions and suddenly found myself in the throws of transition. Charis Joy, I am not a quiet woman during labor. I'm sure everyone could hear me down the halls as my body prepared for you to be born. At this point, my midwife had me climb into the bed to check me again, and proclaimed, "You're ready to push!"

"What?!" And three pushes later you were here, sweet girl. It was a whirlwind. They plopped you on my tummy in all of your goo and glory, and I couldn't stop saying, "I can't believe she's here!" "I can't believe she's here!"

We were able to snuggle and get to know eachother for almost an hour before they finally cleaned you up and weighed you. 

You weighed 7 lb 7.6oz, and you were 19.5inches long. You were born at 12:40am on October 3, 2014.

Monday, May 2, 2016

May 2 - sick mama, sick kids and a faithful God

I've been asking the Lord to renew the joy of my salvation. It's been stagnant waters around here, a going-through-the-motions kind of faith.

So as I do everyday, I opened up my Bible reading plan to I Chronicles 3-5. I'm a "read straight through the Bible" kind of gal. Have you read I Chronicles recently? Nuggets of encouragement are harder to come by. God's faithfulness isn't lost on me though. I see his hand, preserving his people in spite of their sin, in spite of their mess, in spite of their love for self and idolatry. They loved the lie rather than the Giver of Truth and all Good things.

And so I closed my Bible after reading  a couple of chapters, not particularly encouraged. Tired. Sick. Yes, I am sick right now. Ironically, I remember telling my husband a couple of months ago how I have supermom powers; I haven't succumbed to illness. My hubby and the girls have been sick, but not me. No, not me.

Well I'm not super human, and my children are little germ factories.

My baby had hand foot and mouth disease at the end of April.

Rash.

Hacking.

Coughing.

Colds.

And now I have two with ear infections and one with a positive strep test. By the way, I've got the whole aches/pains, on-fire sore throat, and exhaustion. It's no wonder that even my supermom powers were no match for lots of little girls who are NOT experts in covering their coughs, throwing their tissues in the garbage or hand washing. SO MUCH HYGIENE TRAINING needed in this home. Please pray for my children who have a germaphobe for a mother.

And of course my husband is traveling with work. So last night, I found myself lying in bed, unable to stop coughing, and oh so tired and lonely. I opened up my Bible to a favorite spot - Psalms 61-63 - and these words landed in my heart :

My soul clings to you;
your right hand upholds me.  - Psalm 63:8

And in my tears and coughing and loneliness, the Lord reminded me to cling to him. And I clung to His promises, rehearsing many of them over in my head. Because in hard things, I need truth.

He's not finished with me. He promises to complete the good work in me. -- philippians 1:6

He will be with me until the end of the age. -- matthew 28:20.

He has granted me all I need for life and godliness. 2 peter 1:3

He who calls me is faithful. He will surely do it. - I thessalonians 5:34

...But he gives more grace. -- james 4:6

I am so thankful for this abundant grace because I'm still coughing. My husband is still gone. My daughter's ear still aches. My babies still need so much of me, often more than I seem to have. My patience is almost always in short supply. I need more: "Quick to listen. Slow to speak. And slow to become angry in my life."

And in my weakness and frailty I'm brought back to 2 Corinthians 12:9:

"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."

And the Lord DID show me his grace - through His Word, through the kindness and patience of the nurses and doctors, in a friend who brought us dinner and sat with my girls while I ran an errand, in the pharmacist who took the time to help me find the right medicine that would be best for me and my baby, and through the messages and prayers of so many who love me and intercede on my behalf.

So. Much. Grace.

Sometimes I want to make myself an island. To my selfish, introverted, sometimes too-private heart this feels easy. But being a part of the Body of Christ is oh so much better. Always.

And so I'm coughing as I type this, drinking some herbal tea, waiting for my kids to finally fall asleep so I can go to sleep and most of all - thankful. I am thankful for a renewed joy of my salvation.

It is good to serve a Father who listens and answers our prayers.

Saturday, April 23, 2016

a typical morning



vintage dress up


My mom made this dress, and it is being loved and enjoyed by another generation.

I'm feeling more "vintage" these days. I have my first white hairs, and for the first time, I'm noticing lines settling around my eyes. "Vintage" for me is a great treasure trove of memories, blessings and joy. I'm thankful for a hope that is an anchor for my soul.





Monday, April 18, 2016